Clearly it has been awhile since I have updated this. I wouldn't say a lot of things have gone on but enough to write about. I have decided to take grad classes online instead of going for my vet tech degree and then reapply to vet school again. I keep changing my mind but I think this time I know what I am going to do. Work is work busy and overworked. Could be worse I suppose.
My other best friend from high school is moving to Florida Saturday. so there goes that. At least I got to say goodbye to her.
Things with Anthony have been so friggan crazy its not even funny. This is what you get when you see each other but aren't in a relationship. I don't even know where to begin. Since my birthday I guess the first thing was his friend whos also mine decided to start crap with him because he wont get the balls to be in a relationship with me and thinks he is just playing with me and stringing me a long and so forth and that pissed him off to the point of where he almost said forget it to me nd walked away. Bull#&$* if I was going to let that happen. I haven't been with someone in over three years and I really like him so I was going to lose him after barely 2 months. Things did go back to normal for a little while after that blew off. Then he had PortConMaine which is like Comic-Con but its in Portland ,maine. and he became very busy and we didn't get to spend as much time together which was fine I completely understood he works there so he has a lot to do. So we went out on a triple date with my other two girlfriends and their boys and it was really nice. Im glad we got to do it before he left and it was enjoyable. Throughout all the time we kept going back to the convo of why we aren't in a relationship. He is just confusing. Everyone is at a different time in their life so hey whatever. We don't need to label us as anything right now im happy your happy its fine. So then he came back from PortCon and spent the next day (he has been on vacation for 10 days) with his ex/best friend who's still in love with him and im pretty sure he still has feelings for her which is definitely another reason why we aren't in a relationship even though he didn't actually come out and say those exact words. We talked the day after and I could tell he was upset about it because shes moving away and obviously she still means a lot to him but I hope he can get out of his sad slump eventually and move on with his life. Shes going off and doing something she loves more than anything or anyone probably and he has to move on with his life as well. Im sure they will stay close friends I have no doubt about that. But it is a part of life people who mean a lot to you move on and away but that doesn't mean you have to not be part of each others lives anymore it is just in a different way.
I on the other hand hope it distresses him from worrying about it all the time and we can move on the next step not meaning a relationship just not stuck I don't know. we'll see what happens. How long can you date someone without really falling for them and not being in a relationship? I haven't seen him since last Tuesday morning and wont be able to until this coming Tuesday if I can. he says his life is crazy because he has college stuff. Well I didn't bother you about seeing you over your vacation. I m just asking for one day. Im sure it wont hinder the other stuff you are doing that much.
Busy work weekend ahead. Working literally all weekend!
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