Clearly it has been awhile since i have written in this. I guess i just have been avoiding to type what really is going on. Anthony dumped me even though we weren't even in a relationship. It really hit me hard and it sucked. We are trying things out as friends. It kind of still sucks because clearly i have feelings for him more than a friend but i have to hinder them because he just wants us as friends. We didn't see each other for a month and then we went to Acadia together for the entire day and it was actually really great. I thought it was going to hurt but it didn't. I still have moments where i kind of wish we were more but i have to keep those thoughts to myself. We are going to the movies tomorrow to see The Worlds end. Should be fun although we don't talk a lot in between the time we see each other.. He kind of sucks at talking via phone or Facebook. I have to learn to get used to it. I mean god forbid he doesn't love me and my name doesn't rhyme with Feather therefore why talk to me anyways. I'm lower on his totem pole now so whatever. Nothing is going to come out of this friendship as in it wont move forward because he doesn't feel anything more for me than that which means why the hell did he keep saying how much he liked me and how wonderful and etc i was when we were dating. You son of a B! men i swear to god. Fix yourself before breaking me huh.
Work is ridiculous and i want to take a veterinary assistant program at pennfoster. it says it should take about 4 months.
Supposed to be going to Hawaii in December to see my brother and sister in law and i have to save a grand up for this trip. Yeah that should be real easy. I hope i can even get the time off. Other than that not much else going on in my world for now.
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